While waiting for that slow man to come pick me up... update abit first...

Ya, still in office now... indeed is a black friday... gotta work so late... last min the email come in n got so many attachments to check n record.... sob sob...

Lucky tmr is sat... phew...

Today lunch is Mac Wings Meal... Yummy yum yum...

Later gg to bring ethan back clementi...hehehe...good good...then let my father in law handle this notti boy...

Hmm, donno wat to eat for dinner again...everyday must tink twice for wat to eat... urgh... SIAN...

Still got unfinished work not done...hahaha..monday then do... (so-called not urgent)

Okie, slowly pack my things n shut dwn com... BYE....

Whahaha...update my blog during lunch break...hope will be in time b4 the others come back...

Being busy wif work and ethan for the past few months...

Recently hooked up wif gym activities... wanted to train those flabby tummy to muscles...lol... i hope so..

Went to the hougang stadium sports complex... tink today will hit the anchorvale cc instead bcos renovation running at hougang..

Ate kuay chup wif rice jus nw... share wif my colleague...and is oly $2.50 each.. and i get myself green apple juice for digestion... :)

Wanted to buy bah kwa leh...still waiting for my salary come in..hopefully before CNY can bank in to our account...

Really donno where all the $$$ goes... even without anyhow buy stuffs...still not enuff always...

Oh ya, ytd my mum brought ethan to her fren's salon cut hair...and nw he look like mini ah wang... OMG..

Okie... tats all for now...

long time nv access to my blog.. busy..busy..busy.. trying out a few jobs previously.. started as dental asst.. which last a month.. too bad.. couldnt cope with the hours and actually couldnt stand the stress.. then rested for sometime n then try out the women's clinic.. the job is easy n in fact i love it.. too bad..stingy boss.. i realised i can get a higher pay job.. so i went interview.. got a job as a admin asst at Braemar Falconer.. starting work on 8Nov. Alot of obstables in front of me.. learning to get thru it..

Mainly came from my mum.. i seriously donno hw to communicate wif her.. always like tat.. i know she take care of ethan n she's tired.. i did offer help.. but wat else she's not happy wif it? Is it me? Since young she alr so biased.. i tink she hates me.. i really hate to stay here right now.. is like a prison.. not HOME..

If my husband can do something to help.. i really wish.. he jus knw hw to complain abt my mum n add more problems to me.. all he knws is to ask me throw ethan to his aunt and i stays at clementi.. which doesnt works.. i work at clarke quay.. after work all i wan is to see ethan.. i wouldnt wan to let him out of my sight.. then is so inconvenient.. and saying abt infant care.. the fees and etc is alr cost a bomb.. hw to afford??

I donno wat to do.. so now.. i will take care ethan myself till i start work... NO CHOICE..

sometimes i hate the way my mum handle ethan.. pat him so hard n shout at him w her squeaky voice.. is fucking irritating.. her voice like wan to kill him.. urgh.. and i cant bear to see him cry.. i rather to pat myself..

ethan is a cute n smart baby.. grows n learns fast.. am proud to have him in my life.. nv ever will i abadon him.. love him so much.. although he's notti.. but every bits makes us bond even closer.. and he knows my attention is all on him.. :)

Jus tat my mum.. i really donno hw.. and i nv tok to her.. she oso nv tok to me.. so be it.. i heck care.. y am i always the one ??

jus finish feeding ethan congee.. haha.. cant even finish a blog straightaway.. gg to see him now.. update again..

long time no blog.. no time to blog.. now got a bit of free time.. cos i ask my mum feed baby milk.. today whole day nv see each other..cos i bring baby go swimming.. is his 1st attempt and i think he did it well.. no fear.. he enjoyed swimming..alot of postures..haha.. backstroke.. frog stroke.. all kinds of pattern.. makes me laugh all the way.. gg to bring him there every week.. :D

very tired.. everyday not enuff sleep.. mentally n physically tired..

confinement day 16.. my mood is same color as this font.. blue.. depressed.. lonely.. ytd serene came n gave me baby's clothes n presents for Ethan.. and she's pregnant again.. ;) happy for her.. she love kids so much... may god bless her.. baobei got his 1st angbao from my mum's old fren.. yippee!! just now ah hui,karen,peiwen,ah da & ah qiang came n visit baby.. they jus left.. we were discussing which buffet to order.. which food to order.. i busy wif baby.. i tink later baby will wake up for milk soon.. he looks hungry all the time.. donno y these few days he cry very jialat.. is it hungry? but he alr had his milk on time.. 2hours each.. hw cum still so hungry?? maybe is time to add the portion? but donno he will vomit milk again ma... haiz.. i so troubled.. each time he cry i oso cry.. feel so lousy tat i cant even handle a baby.. mayb my natural dont have patience.. i lose temper easily.. i oso knw scold n shout at baby no use..he dont even understand.. but i really donno wat to do.. i feel so lonely.. hubby not ard..not wif me.. i dont even knw who to tok to.. i love my baby but when he makes a nuisance i get fed up n i dont even want to carry him.. i feel tat he makes me very exhausted.. i hope he jus drink his milk n slp.. wake up drink milk then slp again.. dont make a fuss.. then i will feel peace.. i jus feel no one concern me..

at last got some spare time to update blog..while notti ethan is sleeping.. and not yet cry for milk.. very tired n sleepy.. every 2 hours he nid milk.. if not he will angry n cry until face red red.. somedays im doing alone..somedays hubby help me..somedays mum helps.. i am quite depressed.. i can cry suddenly..i oso donno why.. when ethan cry non stop n i donno wats wrong.. and when im in bad mood..i oso feel like crying.. usually bcos lack of rest.. i cant sleep well..even if i lie on the bed..i will always look at ethan.. see is he vomiting milk etc.. finally ethan got his check up done.. no nid to go back kkh.. but still have to avoid those drugs.. after all the doc says G6PD cannot be cured.. .. .. .. .. ethan jus had his shower..now sleeping soundly.. but i guess he will wake up soon for his milk le.. Soooooooooooooooooo tired.............................

my little sunshine..EthAn Tan... day 4 already.. see him grow each day..getting cuter n cuter.. really is my 心肝宝贝。。。

hubby now trying to carry baby le.. snatching to carry baby from me.. which is good.. let him bond with Ethan more..

dont say i love baby more than u la.. baby now at hospital everyday..i cannot see him i very heartpain u know.. he still a baby...i so scare.. i know myself is a big kid.. i donno i can be a good mummy anot.. tats y i very gan jiong about baby.. scare him sick..scare him cry.. scare him pain..

i miss him everyday.. until he is home.. if not i will be depressed.. i cry for him almost everyday.. i so worry for him..

everyday go hospital for tat few hours is really not enuff..time pass so fast.. really 很舍不得他。。。

Today baby very awake... finish milk le dont wan to sleep.. wanna play.. wanna try to talk.. so cute.. i help him change diapers 2 times.. hehe..i can feel him pass motion while feeding him.. this notti boy.. nvm.. i like to do all these.. :)

the only thing to look forward is to visit him at kkh.. feed him milk..carry him around..sayang him play wif him.. hopefully this 3 more days observation is fine and i can bring him home.. god bless!!!!!!