my little sunshine..EthAn Tan... day 4 already.. see him grow each day..getting cuter n cuter.. really is my 心肝宝贝。。。

hubby now trying to carry baby le.. snatching to carry baby from me.. which is good.. let him bond with Ethan more..

dont say i love baby more than u la.. baby now at hospital everyday..i cannot see him i very heartpain u know.. he still a baby...i so scare.. i know myself is a big kid.. i donno i can be a good mummy anot.. tats y i very gan jiong about baby.. scare him sick..scare him cry.. scare him pain..

i miss him everyday.. until he is home.. if not i will be depressed.. i cry for him almost everyday.. i so worry for him..

everyday go hospital for tat few hours is really not enuff..time pass so fast.. really 很舍不得他。。。

Today baby very awake... finish milk le dont wan to sleep.. wanna play.. wanna try to talk.. so cute.. i help him change diapers 2 times.. hehe..i can feel him pass motion while feeding him.. this notti boy.. nvm.. i like to do all these.. :)

the only thing to look forward is to visit him at kkh.. feed him milk..carry him around..sayang him play wif him.. hopefully this 3 more days observation is fine and i can bring him home.. god bless!!!!!!