confinement day 16.. my mood is same color as this font.. blue.. depressed.. lonely.. ytd serene came n gave me baby's clothes n presents for Ethan.. and she's pregnant again.. ;) happy for her.. she love kids so much... may god bless her.. baobei got his 1st angbao from my mum's old fren.. yippee!! just now ah hui,karen,peiwen,ah da & ah qiang came n visit baby.. they jus left.. we were discussing which buffet to order.. which food to order.. i busy wif baby.. i tink later baby will wake up for milk soon.. he looks hungry all the time.. donno y these few days he cry very jialat.. is it hungry? but he alr had his milk on time.. 2hours each.. hw cum still so hungry?? maybe is time to add the portion? but donno he will vomit milk again ma... haiz.. i so troubled.. each time he cry i oso cry.. feel so lousy tat i cant even handle a baby.. mayb my natural dont have patience.. i lose temper easily.. i oso knw scold n shout at baby no use..he dont even understand.. but i really donno wat to do.. i feel so lonely.. hubby not ard..not wif me.. i dont even knw who to tok to.. i love my baby but when he makes a nuisance i get fed up n i dont even want to carry him.. i feel tat he makes me very exhausted.. i hope he jus drink his milk n slp.. wake up drink milk then slp again.. dont make a fuss.. then i will feel peace.. i jus feel no one concern me..