long time nv access to my blog.. busy..busy..busy.. trying out a few jobs previously.. started as dental asst.. which last a month.. too bad.. couldnt cope with the hours and actually couldnt stand the stress.. then rested for sometime n then try out the women's clinic.. the job is easy n in fact i love it.. too bad..stingy boss.. i realised i can get a higher pay job.. so i went interview.. got a job as a admin asst at Braemar Falconer.. starting work on 8Nov. Alot of obstables in front of me.. learning to get thru it..

Mainly came from my mum.. i seriously donno hw to communicate wif her.. always like tat.. i know she take care of ethan n she's tired.. i did offer help.. but wat else she's not happy wif it? Is it me? Since young she alr so biased.. i tink she hates me.. i really hate to stay here right now.. is like a prison.. not HOME..

If my husband can do something to help.. i really wish.. he jus knw hw to complain abt my mum n add more problems to me.. all he knws is to ask me throw ethan to his aunt and i stays at clementi.. which doesnt works.. i work at clarke quay.. after work all i wan is to see ethan.. i wouldnt wan to let him out of my sight.. then is so inconvenient.. and saying abt infant care.. the fees and etc is alr cost a bomb.. hw to afford??

I donno wat to do.. so now.. i will take care ethan myself till i start work... NO CHOICE..

sometimes i hate the way my mum handle ethan.. pat him so hard n shout at him w her squeaky voice.. is fucking irritating.. her voice like wan to kill him.. urgh.. and i cant bear to see him cry.. i rather to pat myself..

ethan is a cute n smart baby.. grows n learns fast.. am proud to have him in my life.. nv ever will i abadon him.. love him so much.. although he's notti.. but every bits makes us bond even closer.. and he knows my attention is all on him.. :)

Jus tat my mum.. i really donno hw.. and i nv tok to her.. she oso nv tok to me.. so be it.. i heck care.. y am i always the one ??

jus finish feeding ethan congee.. haha.. cant even finish a blog straightaway.. gg to see him now.. update again..